WHY CANT I

We as a human feel a lot about every tit and bit happening around daily, but still we can’t express, we can’t arrange our deep emotions into word or expression. Is it because we with ages grow big enough to burry our emotions inside.

Sometimes I wonder if I m really growing up or just pretending to be, if I m not then why cant I tell my ma how much I love her, how much I miss her, how much I miss sleeping on her lap, our small talks, family gossips and all.

Why cant I tell my dad, I love him too, I love the care and attention he always gave me, I miss being under his protection where I don’t need to worry about anything.

Why cant I tell my bro how much I miss being with him, how much I miss those pillow fights, birthday surprises, why cant I give him a big bear hug and say “hey don’t worry bro I m there”

Why cant I tell my di jiju how much importance they hold in my life, how much I respect them, how I feel that lack of a real elder brother doesn’t exist in my life any longer,

Why cant I hold on my two little kids, why cant I run along with them and laugh heartily.

Why cant I tell my friends you people are my life, why cant I tell them I miss hanging out with them and having fun, how much I miss their hand on my shoulder whenever things turn wrong, WHY, just because now I m a grown up.

If this is calling being grown up I would choose to be kid forever, as I want to express I want to cry, want to laugh my heart out and feel every emotion to its extreme BUT I have learnt one has change with time to even if he/she doesn’t want to, its nature’s rule and being a part of it I m trapped into the same……………..